nothing gets better

So, my baby's father gives me more reasons to dislike him. He avoided me just about all week then decided he'd hang out for a bit last night. Yet today when I got home from a day of errands I find myself both deleted and blocked from facebook. Not sure why since I do nothing against him, let him get away with way too much and always keep things nice and civil. But on a better note, I've gotten a few things I needed for this little guy once he's born. Not much, but every little bit counts. My baby shower will be next weekend and so far only a few people have said they were coming. It makes me nervous since there's still so much I need and I just don't have the faith that I'll get even half of it. I'm trying to stay positive and keep my head off but it's harder then others some days and today is one of those days. I need a back rub and a hug.