he's a funny one

So my ex said through a friend that he wants his video camera back....well maybe if you want something from me you should contact me since you have my number and know where I live. I'm not playing games or dealing with middle men. You want something from me, get a hold of me and talk to me yourself. One a lighter note I got some more good stuff yesterday and am feeling better about having enough clothing for baby. Crossing my fingers I can get a crib and a swing soon. As over the situation as I am with my ex, it still gets to me how he can be so uncaring and how my supposed best friend could do this to me. Its crazy. But I'm trying not to stress because I know how bad it is one the baby. Hopefully some day people will grow up, and it would be nice if it was before it was too late.

Shower =)

I had my bay shower today. Didn't get much but got a few things I really needed. I got the infant car seat/carrier and the matching stroller. I also got a Bobby Lounger, towel set, bath goodies, wipes, 2 blankets, 2 outfits, bibs, baby bank, bath gel and some other little things. I still need to some how get a crib, swing or seat and a high chair. And I also need more bottles....only have like 4 so far and I need to get a supply of diapers going. Don't know how I'm gonna manage yet but hopefully I'll be able to. All in all today was a very good day and as much as I still need to get, I am so thankful for what I was given.

rain rain go away!

Wow am I sick of all this rain...do I love in Providence, RI or Seattle, WA? Its annoying and a little depressing. But any way....on vacation from work till July 5th...thank god I picked up temp work for next week so I won't lose another full week of pay. That would suck. Tomorrow is gonna be suck a busy day....gotta run errands, go to DHS, apply for apartments, doctors appointmet and start getting things ready for my baby shower. All worth it, but I'm gonna be so pooped by the end of it all. Still struggling to get over the events of the past week. I find my mind wondering oftern thinking about how, why, what ifs..its annoying that I can't just shut my brain off. I think I'm dealing with it all better then I would have in the past though so I guess go me...I have a real feeling I won't be getting much at my shower...there's like no one coming. It sucks feeling like my friends and family don't even care enough to respond to an RSVP...sigh...anyone wanna jump on board and help get stuff on my registry?

things can always get worse

So just when I think things are as bad as they can be...I found out today why I was deleted and blcoked from facebook....becasue Michael Jones is now in a relationship with Christine H, my former bestfriend. And neither of them have the balls to pick up a phone or answer a text. Its redic. I have never been so hurt or pissed off in my life. And now she's airing all my dirty laundry to him and he's talking shit about me on his page. Real mature and nice people....its just awesome to see I can't trust anyone these days.

nothing gets better

So, my baby's father gives me more reasons to dislike him. He avoided me just about all week then decided he'd hang out for a bit last night. Yet today when I got home from a day of errands I find myself both deleted and blocked from facebook. Not sure why since I do nothing against him, let him get away with way too much and always keep things nice and civil. But on a better note, I've gotten a few things I needed for this little guy once he's born. Not much, but every little bit counts. My baby shower will be next weekend and so far only a few people have said they were coming. It makes me nervous since there's still so much I need and I just don't have the faith that I'll get even half of it. I'm trying to stay positive and keep my head off but it's harder then others some days and today is one of those days. I need a back rub and a hug.

rants and raves

I'm currently 6 months pregnant. Expecting a bouncing baby boy is Septmeber. I'm on and off with his father...mostly off since he refuses to grow up. I do my best to keep a level head but the stress of finances and everthing is really starting to get to me. I work part time and its not enough to pay the bills any more. I've been looking for a second job for months with no luck and the bigger my belly gets the harder it is to find anything. And my apartment isn't the best place to bring a baby home to and I'm trying to hard to find something else with no luck. I just don't have the money and theres just no help out there for me since I make just a little too much to get anything from the state. Always got my fingers crossed something good comes along.