nerer thought

omg, i'm going back to work on Wednesday! i'm so excited lol. its going to be great. i can't wait to be around adults on a daily basis again and not have to listen to a cranky baby all day =) Ryder is still being a super pain. he's got bad gas most of the time, but its more then just that and i can't put my finger on it. there's nothing wrong, he gets what he needs. changed, fed, burped, walked, snuggled etc. but it's not what he's looking for. idk...he's got a doctors appt the first week of november so i'll ask what else could be going on if he hasn't calmed down by then. i myself am going for my 6 week postpartum appt tomorrow and i cannot wait lol. wanna get back on birth control cuz NO MORE BABIES for me. like ever. im done. guys suck and never want to take responsibility so i'm done lol. 2 bad apples spoiled it for the whole bunch. oh wells

+1 please

i am already sick to death of being a single parent. the stress of doing everything alone 24/7 is dirivng me crazy. i'm not the motherly type to begin with so it really kills me to listen to a crying baby every single day and have so much of my sleep taken from me. i should have someone sharing the load and helping. but no. Mike Jones forever the dead beat would rather have me living in my own personal hell. i can't wait to find someone new who loves me and cares enough to be there for Ryder and i.

my not to little little one

well Ryder weighs 9.4 now. he's getting so big! and he really needs to learn the difference between night and day cuz man oh man is he killing me. i still jaded by the fact that i have like no help. it drives me nuts. poor baby deserves to have a daddy and lord knows when he ever will. im in no run to get into another relationship and Mike is never going to change or step up. its a shame cuz Ryder is probably the best child he'll ever have. i can't wait to pick up his one month pictures in a couple of weeks!! and i've already got ideas for his 3 month pics =) excited!

thank goondess

well i got that break i wanted =) it was nice. also.... michael jones and christine hill.... grow up and get lives. stop obesssing about me and mine, thanks. any who. Ryder's doing great. he's got a doctors appt tommorrow. i wonder how much weight he's gained. he's been a good boy lately. went shopping a few days ago with my bff, got a few things. still need a play pen and i'd like to get a toy box for the bed room cuz the plastic draws i have sucks. also i have to figure out when i might go back to work. going to be tough to find a sitter. hopefully everything will work out.