Welcome baby Ryder!!

Ryder William was born on 9/03/11 at 6:04am weighing 6.9lb!! i love my little pookster so much =) i took so lovely castor oil the night of my due date and hours later, boom, i was in labor. i headed to the hospital at about 3am saturday morning, spent about an hour in triage, got in my room. was there for maybe half hour 45 min, got my epi, then within an hour...actually less Ryder was born. only pushed for a few mintues and out he came. it was a very nice, calm birth and i would do it all over again in a heartbeat. he is by far the best that that has ever happened to me and the best thing in my life. i couldn't ask for a better baby. he does so well sleeping and eating and letting me rest. i can only imagine how wonderful the holidays will be having him here =) so excited for my new life with him. i think he saved me from a life of "good enough". now i aspire to do more, to do better and give him everything and anything he could ever want or need. so in love <3

ok, let's go

come on baby!! getting really sick of being pregnant lol. can never get comfortable. it sucks. sleeping at night is horrible. between tossing and turing and having to pee i really wonder how many hours i end up getting. i almost don't want to know =P also i've been bummed out since last week. it seems all my friends have left me in the dust. i need the more now then ever and i can't get anyone to hang out or anything. yet they all told me they'd be there for me...and for the baby. yea, ok. feels more like i'm on my own again. nothing i can do about it either. i've tried to hang out, but i'm not going to beg and plead. sigh...come on baby!!

almost there

well i'm creeping up on my due date...its this friday. finally got the last bit of things done today that was looming over me. now to get some other errands ran this week and i should be good to go. can't wait to have my little guy =) i'm getting so excited and nervous lol. wondering if he's going to be early, on time or late...hummm.....i'm hoping close to on time.

too stressed for my own good

well per usual i am stressed out. things that should have been days ago...or even weeks ago still aren't done. it's annoying and everyday i'm closer to my due date and its driving me nuts. i just want to relax for a bit before baby comes but instead i'm running around all the time. i still have to pack my hospital bag, this storm is coming in the next few days and i'm praying i make it till at least monday without going into labor. i've been getting mild contractions on and off since early last week. so i'm worried the timing won't be the best but i'm crossing my fingers that everything works out and goes smoothly. still waiting on TDI to be able to collect. they sent a letter the other day saying i didn't make enough for the time they looked at so they will look at different times and see. which i know i made enough because i was in contact with UI and they told me i was good to go, which means i should have no issues getting TDI because they pull from the same money. blah...

day out

spend the day at the Cape. it was nice, and needed. it was the Caoe Verdean Fest. didn't get to the beach, but it would have been boring since i didn't have any friends with me. made a cute bracelet in honor or me and baby =) came out cute. hoping to get a few things i need tomorrow. looks like next weekend i might be able to actually relax. god i hope its true! i feel so big lately and my ribs hurt so bad from this little one kicking me so much. sleeping sucks at this point, can't get comfortable any more. its bad. i just want to get settle and rest so i can regroup before i go into labor.

another man's trash

got a ton of stuff oer to my brother's friend who is pregnant. some times i feel like i'm planning daddy to that poor baby since his parents can't seem to understand how much a baby needs. i gave them a contractor's bag worth of clothing, a tub, crib, bassinet, mobile, play mat, changing table, swing and other odds and ends. they mananged to get a car seat on their own and i hope to god the got a stoller since either of the drives or owns a car and need that more then a car seat. i have most of what i need, just need a swing for now and a high chair and play pen at some point. i plan to start stocking up on diapers and wipes once i get my next check. i can't wait to be settled and alset for this little one.

finally!

finally got the ok from my midwife to stop working. thank god!! i am so run down, tired and sore its crazy. i just hope i get things togehter and ready in time for my little man. hopefully i'll have more time to get on here and write. lately its been tough since i had been working so much. thankfully i'll be able to rest for a few weeks, god willing.